A recurring day-dream places me in a party at a karaoke bar. I can't tell if the party is for me but I am clearly the center of attention. As I walk up to the mic and wait for the song to start I spot someone walking in. We lock eyes and I sing to them. The song is usually whatever is playing on my phone at the »moment«, and the person varies as well (from the vast array of gentlemen callers I may have at any given time). There is always choreography involved. My dancing and facial expressions are the focus; I don't imagine myself having any sort of singing voice. After I finish my number there is much applause and catcalling. I am fawned over. It's all very warm and fuzzy.

Having this day-dream as often as I have does not align with my current feelings of withdrawal. I'm not sad; there are no tears. I just really have been enjoying my own company lately (cyber_friends being the exception i.e. my twitter followers). Maybe I am at ease with this feeling because I know that if I want to get out and socialize with people, I can. I have a good selection of friends to choose from now. This is a luxury I afforded myself after stepping out of my comfort-zone last year in an effort to make more friends. I will continue to commit to being more sociable but I think I can allow myself to get lost in cyberspace once in a while, where there is little face2face interaction. ε-(´・｀) ﾌｰ