I don't understand why I still get the chills when I see this person. Shame and embarrassment come to mind. I'm reminded of how I held back tears in front of them and walked away, sniveling. A massive blow to my ego was dealt, 5 months later and I still return to it more often than I'd like to admit. It's pathetic how poorly I handle rejection. I'll move past it eventually, in my own time. Until then I resolve to become progressively more narcissistic. It's easier to disregard the opinions of others when all you care about is yourself.